It has gotten easier though. My father's death was the single most life changing experience I have ever had. I had been a wreck for years. It was one of the reasons I moved to Mexico. Everywhere in Atlanta reminded me of him. I was so close to offing myself so many times due to enormous depression.
10 years now. He was my champion, my provider, and my best friend. I felt like half a human for years. Even during my marriage of almost 7 years now. The last two years have been better though. I don't dream about him as much as I used to. I thought life could not go on without him. Especially since the JW's said Armaggeddon was any day now. I was living on the edge. Thinking I would see my father any day. It was all bullshit though.
But like I said, life is better today. I have a successful business and a lovely wife. No debts etc. So what is next? Getting old. Then my own death. But I will accumulate as much toys as possible before the shithouse goes up in flames! Yeah I just totally ripped off Jim Morrison there.
Love ya Dad!
Robert Green Architect-Studied personally with Frank Lloyd Wright
April 2nd 1935-September 17th 2003
Miss you so much it hurts. But I am better today than 10 years ago. Wish you could see my cafe.